The day we realized we REALLY have to grow up!!
It was September 13th, and I had just taken my huge NBCOT exam the previous Thursday. I was a wreck! I was for sure that I failed! In my head I kept going over the answers I knew I missed and what I was gonna do if I really did fail! Study another month?! Come up with $500!! Anyways, I cried everyday since I took the test. I'm a big baby by nature but I'm not that big of a baby! I really couldn't keep it together and I just didn't feel myself.
Ryan and I went to Target that night to pick up a few things and I convinced him that it would be a good idea to have some tests on hand. This to Ryan was kind of normal.....through our whole relationship I've said "I think I'm pregnant!" a million and one times! Sometimes for his reaction, sometimes because it was possible and sometimes because I was "sick"!!. Before the wedding we weren't planning on starting a family anytime soon and we were careful but there is always that chance. So anyways, me saying "I think I'm pregnant" wasn't new for him.
When we got home I peed on that thing as fast as I could. It immediately turned positive! My heart flew out of my chest! I thought about this moment that I would tell Ryan for so long! I had it all planned out in my head! I was gonna record it with my phone and do something super cute! Of course all those great ideas flew out the window when I saw that positive sign! At that moment I couldn't get to the living room fast enough to tell him!
At first Ryan looked at me like I was tricking him of course, then when it sunk in, he was in shock! It had only been a month without any prevention and boom! I had read it takes the average couple 3-6 months to get pregnant, so we both were not expecting it to be that fast! I thought I was going to be all comfortable in my new job and shortly after it hopefully would happen!
After I told Ryan, I sent a picture of the test to Kayla (my life long partner #2) with a comment that read "WTF?!?" haha and she reassured us that it was in fact the real deal! We were expecting! Of course Ryan still didn't believe the test so I had to take another!
When we found out it was super early, I think 5 days before my missed period! Sorry may be TMI. I had basically only been pregnant for only two weeks and of course I did a ton of research to see if it was the real deal. Stuff kept coming up about a chemical pregnancy, saying 75% of early detected pregnancy's end in a period. So I held off telling anyone else including my family after 5 weeks! I was so excited and scared to jinks it! Plus I wanted a special way to tell them! Not just over the phone.
So around 5 weeks I whipped up this chalk board, and faced time my mom, sister, brother in-law and niece and nephew. I told Kylee (niece) to take the tablet into her room and asked her if she would read the chalk board to everyone else in the family she read the sign and agreed. She's only 7 so she had no idea what it meant. Her cute little self walked out into the living and told everyone to listen up, then began to read the sign! Everyone was shocked and excited of course! Ever since both Kylee and Jordan actually understood what was going on they have been giving us plenty of ideas for names (kids in their school's names), and arguing on whether its a boy or girl! Safe to say everyone including Ryan's family are thrilled!
Another fun thing we did is send these announcements out to close friends and family! Alot of people didn't get these that were supposed to, so if you didn't get one and you are a close friend or family chances are it got lost in the mail. It was just another fun way to tell our loved ones from a far in a special way!
Along with big ideas for how I was gonna tell Ryan, I had big ideas for our announcement pictures. These where done on a whim when I was about 5 weeks, just for fun. I really wanted to get professional pictures done or maybe have even a friend take our picture, but with me being severally ill 24/7 at 6 weeks until pretty much now at 13 weeks and us not knowing a ton of people here in Denver this is what we came up with. Both taken with an i-phone.
I have been loving telling people about our special news and hearing their reaction! Which pretty much is the same with everyone about how soon we got pregnant after we got married! It gives us a good laugh and honestly deep down, (and those of you that know me well, know) I wanted It to happen ASAP! I thought I would be on to my second by now but I'm so thankful we waited and both have good stable careers and are married! One of my friends said it perfectly.....I was born a baby, wanting babies and I've always been that way! In my mind there is no better purpose in the world then to be a mom! Ryan has always known that about me! I can't tell you how much his excitement has filled my heart! (sorry lil sappy I know) But so true! I cant wait to see him as a dad, because I know hes going to be amazing!
